So it's time to pop it off again. Chances are, due to my professional procrastination skills and laziness, this blog will be forgotten about and lost in the Internet before Summer starts. But, there is a slight chance I will continue with this well beyond Summer. Just need the motivation. =P
I've been wondering lately..am I bi-polar? I mean, not the severe "Hey! How are you? I wanna bash your head in" types, but the type who can be happy one second, but visualizes something and can immediately be depressed. For example, i'll be talking with my friends in the mall, laughing and such and then i'll see a couple and ignore everyone and everything but my thoughts. My thoughts of being with Tricia again cloud my mind and all I can think about is her. People ask me left and right, "What's wrong?" and "Why the hell do you look so sad?" and I just shake my head, replying a simple: "Nothing." It's no ones fault, i've grown to learn that, so I don't put the blame on anybody, but it's just the goddamn desire of being with her that gets me in that mood. At times, i'll just brush it off and cheer myself up by occupying myself with something like the internet, a video game, work or (most of the time) talking to Tricia. Either way, there's always something that brings me back to Earth.
On a more positive note, i'm seeing Tricia next Thursday. She's graduating, so this time my visit will be really exciting. =) My next blog will probably be about that, so keep on the look-out. =P
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